Fading Unto Death

I wrote this today while wishing for a merciful release from my inner turmoil. I imagined my life in a slow dissolve from the moment I took my first breath as an infant. "Born to die" as they say. Even the brightest day grows dark in the evening.

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Winter's Pane

Sitting in my pick-up looking at the world outside and reflecting on my world inside, I noticed some similarities...

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Death Sequence

The lyrics to this song during a dark bout of depression and hopelessness. I see them them as a reflection of where I was, not where I am. I write to rid myself of these feelings that so often plague me. Feelings of worthlessness. Insecurity. Self-doubt. Insignificance. The music came to me unrelated to the lyrics, but the guitar rhythms called my mind back to this particular poem and it was done. 

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Trollskinner

A song from our newest album, Trollskinner is based on the movie Troll Hunter, although I wrote the lyrics from the perspective of a hunted troll.

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Abomination of Creation

I wrote this today while at a particularly low point. Reflection is often a curse to me for some reason. My mind over-analyzes far too many details of life and leaves me feeling a failure, a coward, alone. I drew comparison in this poem between the act of awaiting execution and awaiting forgiveness, both requiring the subordinate to kneel before the master of his fate.

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Ballad of Monkey Boy

Just thinking about how sometimes the person that is there for everybody else often times has nobody there for them when they need it.

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Lost and Bound

Not sure how to define the process here...lets just call it "cold purge." Some ideas hit me and I needed to get them out. Triple meaning here for me: personal, religious, and secular.

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Immortality of Sickness

This is a three-headed beast. One part inspiration from The Strain, one part creating/brainstorming a character for the annual family Halloween party, and one part self-reflecting parable.

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Thief in the Night

Those that know me know of my desire to be abducted by aliens, not to be probed, just abducted. I could use some cosmic enlightenment. I want immortality and a free ride to just travel through space and admire all the galactic handiwork of the multiverse.

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Hellworm

A familiar theme in my writing through the years, though this one is fairly recent. I believe I wrote this last summer.

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To Find the Peace in Madness

Melancholia came to visit again today...she doesn't come around as much this year but when she does, she stays a while...I'm trying...

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Army of Eyeless

I decided to focus myself and write a poem today. This is about a set of characters from my novel I've been working on (for years). "Technical specs": 11 syllable isometric lines, aabb rhyming stanzas...or something like that...

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Battle Hymn of our Fathers

This is a song I wrote and recorded many years ago (15 years ago?). The recording isn't the best, due to my limitations then...I was using a PC microphone dangling from a coat hangar propped on my desk in such a way as to let the microphone hang even with the sound hole of my acoustic guitar. I didn't know then what I know now about recording (which still isn't a whole lot) and I used mostly first takes if they "weren't too bad"...anyhoo, here it is...be kind

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Discontent in Misery

I honestly don't even remember writing this other than I know it was about 2-3 months ago. Apparently an infection I needed to get out of me...

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Leechbreed

Wrote this tonight while watching an episode of The Strain. I find it pretty cool when one artistic medium inspires another.

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Stain of Disease

I wrote this poem as an interpretation of a painting I came across in the Boise Art Museum, the title and artist of which have been lost to me. 

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Disciples of Abaddon

Those that have known me for a considerable amount of time probably know that I have been working on a "universe" of religious horror fiction. This poem is told from the perspective of a main character known as Khaen (pronounced caw-'en) and was written and recorded for my band Ashes of Abaddon. Have a listen!

Copyright 2012 Ashes of Abaddon

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Last Night in Hell

Some dark lyrics to a song I was working on...

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Sir Rants-a-lot presents: Isolation Woes

Seems like a good place to unload a rant since the chances of offending anyone here are slim to none, and its been weighing heavily on my lately. Ever wanted to unload your life’s woes on the ears of a friend who will listen without judgment, reservation, or disgust only to find that a friend of that caliber may not actually exist?

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Executioner’s Lament

Few people know this, but before Andromeda by Ashes of Abaddon was recorded as an instrumental, I had written lyrics to it called Executioner's Lament.

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Contagion

I have struggled with self-worth and self-esteem for much of my life. I've come to understand in recent years that this is not a character flaw as I have previously thought, but rather a personality trait that has driven me to overcome adversity in unique ways. I think this is why I listen to the music I do and write the music that I do, because it speaks from a dark, helpless place but forges with aggression a will to rise up and overcome. Written in three parts, Contagion outlines three internal dialogues: confrontation with myself in the mirror, first person self-narrative, & third person self-reflection with the last line being an invitation extended to others.

photo by Max Chavez

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Wanderer on the Road to Ruin

One of the very first poems I wrote, this was originally started as a song sung to the first chords I learned on the guitar. I'm not sure I remember how to sing it though, so put your money back in your sock, 'cause I aint a singing it!

 

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Fortress of Pain

Multiple meanings and hidden subtexts riddle this poem. Sometimes when I write I sheath my themes with more cryptic, metaphoric passages, while other times I bare the blade in its full shimmer. This poem has more hidden themes for me and I actually just recently finished writing it, as it had only a few lines for quite some time.

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Beast of Hades Gulch

I wrote this as a scene from a larger body of work that I have been working on for several years. I had this grand scheme of writing a poem for each chapter and then recording an album of all the poetry put to music...like a metal musical of my horror novel...yeah i get a little carried away 

sometimes...It could still happen one day...

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Aggression of Oppression

I find religious themes often presenting themselves in my writing. This is an example of just that.

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